Laura:
I lost my 24 year old daughter Katie to a drug overdose and bad circumstances... on Thanksgiving Day, 2010. I remember that day perfectly. Her father left me a message on my cell phone and was asking if she slept at my house, since her two cousins were in visiting from CT and he could not locate her. I told him the last I heard from her was through a txt message the night before around 10:30pm. Her message to me was "ur my mother my best friend and without u id be lost." It was late and I thought I would just txt her in the morning....little did I know that chance would never come. After her fathers call, I called and txted her for hours but she did not answer. Then...at about 1:30pm the police came to my house and gave me the news.
I was in shock. Everyone was in shock.
A beautiful young girl... so full of life... to die over drugs? The overdose was an accident and her position in the car contributed to her death. But it still didn't make any sense. My daughter couldn't be gone.
I was in shock. Everyone was in shock.
A beautiful young girl... so full of life... to die over drugs? The overdose was an accident and her position in the car contributed to her death. But it still didn't make any sense. My daughter couldn't be gone.
It has been 6 months now since she passed and I am still not past the grief of losing my daughter. She was my best friend and I miss her every moment of every day. She had over 200 people at her wake: family, friends, friends of the family, her father, and her brother Daniel. If only she really new how much she was truly loved in this world. She had been trying to get clean and just several months before her death went to a rehab in CT. Before and after treatment, she spent a lot of time up in Connecticut with her aunt Christine. We thought she was doing better.
Love Katie's Mother,
Laura
Laura, thank you for the post. How do you overcome drug addiction? How do you get help? ...i've been struggling for some time now.
ReplyDeleteI miss katie so much she meant everything to me she was also my bestfriend I wish she was still here with us..she's looking down at us and she is happy so we all have to be happy for her..keep your head up Laura I'm here for u -Crystal <3
ReplyDeleteThere is help out there. If you live in Florida you can go for free to Memorial Outreach. Call Janice Monisine at 954-965-6408 ext. 243. Also 888-435-7711 is a treatment resources number. Prayer helps too. Laura
ReplyDeleteKatie...today is 6 months since you left us to live the rest of eternity with the Lord. You are finally at peace and no longer have to fight your depression and drug addiction. I love and miss you more than words could ever express. You have left a deep whole in my heart and taken a piece of me with you. Until the day that you will meet me at the gates I will long for that day. Love, your mom
ReplyDeleteKatie Lennon- This has been so hard, and has change peoples lifes in so many ways....never once did I ever think I'd wake up and not be able to call you... we went through so much together. We had our ups... we had our downs.. but you were like family... I remember the day I met her in 9th grade at circle K with in 2 minutes she had me laughing. Katie always had a way of lightening up any sitution and no matter where we were nothing mattered because I had you. You knew my deepest darkest secrects..and you stuck by my side when I needed you the most. I miss you so much Katie... I always needed you... I find myself day dreaming of our good times... the songs you use to listen to that come on the radio.. the smell of your perfums you got me..our matching tattoo.. and now all I have are memories.. I'd give up everything to see you.. to tell you I love you.. Six months.. and it hurts like yesterday... Katie you will always be on my mind... forever in my heart.. You are safe now.. no pain.. no worries... no struggles.. just love... I love you Katie D4L-Poh
ReplyDeleteR.I.P Angel Pea
Here are some more helplines for anyone that is struggling and trying to get clean from drugs.
ReplyDeleteNational: 800-662-help (4357).
www.stopyouraddiction.com
www.24houraddictionhelp.org.
There is help out there if you need to get off of your drugs. Love, Katie's mom, Laura
I see your smile in the clear blue skies, as I watch the sunrise, see the light in your eyes, I hear your laughter on the warm gentle breeze, I feel your love, as it rustles through trees, the touch of your hands, as it plays through my hair, even though I cant see you, I know you are there, I'll never forget, your beautiful face, forever in my heart, you'll have a space, for this will be, your resting place...
ReplyDeleteSammy, I want to first thank you for starting this website for katie and sam and anyone else that may join. May the Lord bless you for all your hard word and may he alway guide you in your own footsteps. I never new Sam, but from what I hear from you and aunt chrissy he was something special and he didnt know it inside of himself, sort of like Katie. Both such a sad tradgey and we all will never fully get over the losses that it brings. I Love U Aunt Laura
ReplyDeleteKatie we miss you terribly everyday since you went home to be with the Lord almost 8 months ago. We are in Nantucet...and you should be here having fun with us. You are and always will be in our hearts always. You are MY little ANGEL now and until I see you again you will always be in my and everyone's hearts. Love Mom
ReplyDeleteIt has been about 1 year since Katie came up for Rehab, we got a little derailed because of a abcess in the her rt arm. In a weird way it was the best thing that happened we were able to spend quality time catching up on year's that had escaped us. Tim & the girls went to his mom's & I had to stay back because of her surgery. I took her to get her lip & eybrow repairced, and also bought a studded bracelet. I will remember that day clear because she said "THANK YOU" so much I had such a good time spend 1 on 1 time with you, me to I said. That summer also my Sister Laura Katie's MOM came in and asked my children if they wanted to come to Fla for Thanksgiving, also 11/21/ is Amanda's birthday and the 2nd day Jet Blue flew out of HTFD, so we booked the ticket's. We were having our hard wood floors re-done do I was running late with the turkey. I recieved a call from Laura around 1:30 I said Happy Thanksgiving she alway's call to wish Happy Holiday's she said "Katie's Dead, I said NO she said yes I said Oh my God whay happend , what can I do. She was on her way out to her daughter-in-Law's house for dinner and told me she would call me with the arragements. I still can not believe it , if I did not see her in that casket I would think she was on vacation somewhere.There is not a day that goes by that I do not miss her or think of her, when I look at the bird's in the kitchen I know a part of Katie is in her. I Love & miss you so much my sweet niece, You have left a whole in my heart but I know when I get to Heaven it will be filled again!!!
ReplyDeletei love and miss you
ReplyDeleteKatie...What has it been about 10 months now but it seems like yesterday. I will NEVER stop grieving you, my life has forever changed. I can cry sometimes but mostly not. I miss u sooo much only the Lord knows. This is a quote from a book written by Sandy Fox that says what is in my heart...To my daughter, A special place in my heart is reserved only for you. The happiest day of my life-when you entered it; the saddest-when you left. You brought me only joy, never sadness nor tears. I carry my love for your with me always. I was always so proud of you Your accomplishment, your successess, your writings. Your beauty warmed my heart. But what surprises me the most is what is never knew until recently, Your inner beauty, your affect on others, How you touched so may lives. It is their everlasting feelings for you that will one day make me whole again.(ONE DAY FAR AWAY) For they will keep your memory alive along with me. I will NEVER stop loving or remembering you. Nothing ever dies that is remembered...I will never get over losing you Katie. The grief will never go away until we meet at the gates of heaven. I cant wait to see you waiting there to greet me with that beautiful smile on your beautiful face...until then i will always mourn. Love Mom
ReplyDeleteKATIE I sit restlessly, the clock's calling out your name. Quivering at the sound I wait, I wait for hours, hoping, just hoping you'll be back. Memories blast through my mind. I look at old photos, lying on my bed, just the thought of you could make me cry. I wish you could respond, hoping that everything that has happened is just a dream, that you'll be back this summer and it will all be the same again. But you won't. People say the pain will go away, and they're sorry, but nobody will ever know how I feel, losing someone like you doesn't even compare, it's not like the loss of a pet. You where there for me all the time; any hour of any day. We were like sisters, but better yet, cousins. Even though we fought, yelled, and screamed, at the end of the day everything was alright again. But that doesn't even matter now; it's all in the past. I do try to relax, but obviously, I can't. Your contact still, and always will, lie in my phone. Staying in that one place, untouched, and unharmed, just another memory of you. If you ever thought you'd be forgotten, think again, I would never do that to you. We were together in a pack as two.
ReplyDeleteKatie...Christmas is around the corner, only about a week and a half away and I miss u so much. When I am in the store's I think of what I would have bought you...those studded earrings, that new sweatshirt, those jeans. Everyday is painful without you here. I love you my presious daughter. Love Mom
ReplyDeleteLOVE YOU KATIE LENNON YOUR MY BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE... MISS U SO MUCH XOXOXOXOXOXO CATIE CLARK
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